first year of college...

well.
i am in awe that this year is almost over. i have one more week of classes left and then finals week then i will officially be done with my freshman year of college. that doesnt even seem possible. its hard to believe that i am older, wiser and changed. i am not the same girl i was last june. i have dealt with immense pain from loosing my nana. i have dealt with living with my best friend. i have dealt with loosing a best friend. i have dealt with being completely submersed in a new surrounding. i have dealt with planning my own time. i have dealt with a huge struggle with a best friend. i have dealt with falling far from god. i have dealt with breaking my heart for god to move in it. i have dealt with stress. i have dealt with the pain of not knowing many people in long beach. i have dealt with missing my mentors and peers in riverside. i have dealt with life. i have dealt with a fallout with a sibling.
and i never would change any of it. there is not one thing that i would wish to rewind and redo. there is not one thing i would take back. not one. every single thing that god has presented before me i have struggled with, learned my lesson from and moved on. its amazing. i feel so strong in christ. i know that i will have many more lessons in the next 3 years. this year has just been a tester to the rest of them im sure. but i say, bring it. god will prevail. even when i dont want to trust him, dont want to give him my life, give him my heart to mold, i know that he will guide me.

there is a road.
a man walks down the road.
he sees a pothole.
falls right into it.
is totally lost and has no idea how he got there or how to get out.

there is a road.
a man walks down the road.
he sees a pothole.
falls right into it.
vaguely remembers being there before but still isnt sure about where he is or how to get out.

there is a road.
a man walks down the road.
he sees a pothole.
falls right into it.
immediately remembers where he is, how he got there and how to get out.

there is a road.
a man walks down the road.
he sees a pothole.
chooses to fall right into it.

there is a road.
a man walks down the road.
he sees a pothole.
walks around it.

there is a road.
and the man chooses a different one to walk down.

Eric from rock harbor shared that story in his message last sunday.
it was totally amazing.

thank you abba.
thank you.









pee es:
theres a guy : )