well, no more guy.
that was interesting.
i'm oddly at peace with it.
there have been many moments when i sink into the lies that satan feeds me so subtly like he never liked you, why would he like you, etc... but they have been overcome with beautiful truth sung to me by you abba. those are my true emotions - i know that i am loved and that you are enthralled by my beauty.
it's been an amazing lesson through this last month.
i absolutely loved liking him so much.
but
i know that i (hopefully) will absolutely love being his friend.
he hasn't changed.
neither have i.
we're both the same cool people that clicked on may 1st as we are now on june 1st.
i said at the beginning of this that either way i will gain a friend. whether he is my bf or my friend, i win.
so now the friendship hopefully will come out of this : )
i honestly would like that.
it sounded like he is in the same boat but we shall see.
i'm not nervous to see him tonight at rockharbor.
i am on the other hand absolutely stoked to go to church tm night.
i feel like home there and i can't wait!
i miss the passion and utter love that you push through me when i come into the presence with tons of other strong fired up believers. thank you so much for making that be a vital part of this beautiful faith.
i just finished reading the 1st out of three Lyon books by Francine Rivers and it was absolutely phenomenal.
my brain is seriously reeling with the beauty of you and life and just ahh.
nothing can contain the feeling.
it can't be put to paper, recorded, documented. NOTHING.
you are unfathomable (and for my christina, no. we cannot have just a little bit of fathom lol)
i love you.
yes, i wanted a boyfriend and it felt like your hand was so strongly placed in this. i have no doubt that it was but you just chose to end it differently than i saw it going. and i know i will rejoice in that later! i know it.
k luhve you buhbye!
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