a dead song revived.

-There's a cry in my heart
For Your glory to fall
For Your presence to fill up my senses
There's a yearning again
A thirst for discipline
A hunger for things that are deeper
Could You take me beyond?
Could You carry me through?
If I open my heart?
Could I go there with You?
For I've been here before
But I know there's still more
Oh, Lord, I need to know You
For what do I have
If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life
Could mean any more?
You are my rock
You are my glory
You are the lifter of my head
Lifter of this head-

I've totally been rockin pandora (i forgot how rad this internet radio station is) and this song by Starfield was in the playlist. I'd never really listened to this song before today even though i've heard it too many times on Air1 as just some tunage; some average christian song. Around the same time while i was at work i was kinda draggin on the idea of LoveHOP tonight. I'm tired and honestly pretty drained from the emotional and spiritual events that have been occuring there for the past month. I'm not writing to say that i've been transformed. I don't have some magical "god gave me strength and a desire to go" story. but i am trying to remain captivated and this song gave me some hope and encouragement.

matthew 7:7-11 - ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened.

these are the words my heart is unabashedly having a difficult time trying to find comfort in. that statement alone is a testament to what god's been doing in my stubborn heart. before, i would have used perky upbeat christian words instead of honest pissy sara ones. my mind knows these god breathed words are true but my heart is still timid about the intensity of trust He asks of us... of me. the words themselves don't freak me out. what freaks me out is ignoring them. i need to begin carpe diem. so, for today, which is all i'm entrusted with, i am going to embrace these words. i cannot shut down my heart today for the possibility of disappointing god tomorrow.

agitare: stir/drive/shake/move about; revolve; live; consider, pursue.