i am...:

i'm done!
i'm done waiting around telling god what he should be doing.
i'm done complaining about where i work.
where i live.
where i go to school.
i'm done being pissed off that i'm not somewhere else.
i'm done leaving out my whole story.
i'm done putting limits on my GOD.

do you know what i'm going to do instead?
carpe diem

because you know what?
i am not promised even the next breath.
so ya, maybe tomorrow god will give me something that leads me out of my job
out of long beach
out of my major
and.
maybe.
he.
won't.
i MUST find him in both scenarios.

saying these words does NOT mean that everything will be great.
that i will be calm.
that i will be ok.
but saying these words declares my desire to love my god.
so there.
ta da.