i'll be waiting till i'm ready:

too many voices i dont know what to think:

mother:

stay in school. i think you'll be disappointed in yourself if you change majors again. you are loosing sight of the goal. you are getting too bogged down in the ground you are walking on instead of the place you are walking to. remember why you chose this major sara; you chose it so that you could help people.

billy:

school is not always the option. im not saying drop out but im saying pay attention to where god wants you. im a firm believer in doing what you are passionate about.

me:

i am sick and tired of school. i dont want to be a speech pathologist. i stopped my dream of being a doctor (this was before i realized i am not gifted with science or math skills) because i knew i wanted a family and spending 8 years in school just to get to the bottom was not going to work. THIS MAJOR IS PRACTICALLY 8 YEARS TOO!?!? what was i thinking? just because i like the idea of anatomy and phonetics does NOT mean that i am passionate about those things. i am a passionate person. i can't ignore that. i dont think school is as important as everyone makes it out to be. i need to know where god wants me. and i need him to tell me because i am not 'great' at anything. i cant paint. i cant think scholastically. but i can love him. and i will.

GOD:

-silence-