the same?:

if i didn't pray:
god take my mouth and my eyes today.
i am tired and i dont want to go be with new people today.
i dont even know if im staying in this major so why am i doing all of this?
but i signed up and i can't just sit stagnant waiting for you to tell me where to go/what to do.
so ok, i'll go with a heart that is yours.

if i didn't read:
Matthew 6:21
- For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

would god have done this:
"are you religious?"
well, i hate that word. i love god.
"oh so you don't practice?"
no no. i do. oh i do. i go to the garden in downtown long beach and help out and live life with god.
"oh ok."
you?
"no, well i used to be hardcore christian...[pause]...now i'm atheist."
oh crazy.
"yeah..."
(next day)
wanna come to church with me and my friends?
"yeah what time? i really want to."

i don't know if this same event would have occured this same way.

but i'm stoked that it did.

and i do know that god will cry tears of unexplainable relief and joy when said friend says his name again:
"dad? i... need you."

HOPE: a confident expectation in christ.