this is from June 29th from my awesome friend and high school pastor trav osborne. i wrote him earlier in that week saying i was feeling restless and confused by what god wants me to do and that i hear him saying come find me. trav's note to me is so meaningful and so wise. its crazy. so yeah, this was his response:
Hey Sara,
It sounds like God is up to something in your life...that is always exciting (and scary at the same time). No need to fear, Sara...God will guide and lead if you continue to seek and follow. During my times of confusion and transition, I kept praying Proverbs 3:5-6 back to the Lord: "Lord, I will trust in YOU with ALL MY HEART. I won't lean on my OWN understanding. In all my ways, I will acknowledge YOU. And YOU will DIRECT MY PATHS (make my paths straight)."
Here's my two cents from my own experience. I kept waiting for God to tell me where to go from Santa Cruz...but it seemed like He was silent. In my heart, I wasn't fully satisfied with being in Santa Cruz BUT I couldn't step out of there UNTIL GOD TOLD ME WHERE TO GO. So I decided that UNTIL HE MOVED ME TO THE NEXT PLACE, I would continue to serve Him RIGHT WHERE HE HAD ME. Eventually, He did put a calling in my heart to move to Redding to be a campus pastor.
Here's my encouragement, Sara: God may be calling you "out" of school and into something else. Continue to pray about it...over and over. Ask for His peace in your next step. He may reveal the next step to you tomorrow or in two years! BUT UNTIL HE MOVES YOU, BE FAITHFUL TO DO WHAT HE HAS PUT BEFORE YOU TODAY.
A couple years before we left the Grove, I was sensing some "restlessness" in my heart. I didn't know if I should stay in youth ministry or move on to something else. I didn't know if I should stay at the Grove or move on to somewhere else. Instead of just dropping the Overflow right then, I continued for the next couple years, serving where God had planted me. I said, "God, I don't know what You're doing in my heart, but until you MOVE me to the next place, I will serve you here!" I think He put that "restlessness" in my heart to prepare me for the move a couple years later.
Now Sara, I'm just speculating here, but maybe God is putting this restlessness in your heart for a very good reason. He may be doing this to get you to earnestly search after Him ('Come find Me' as you put it). I wish He would reveal everything all at once, but in my life, He always prepares me first. So while you are "finding Him", be faithful to where He has you right now.
By the way, check out Jeremiah 29:13 and a few verses after. It reminds me of what you are hearing God saying to you (Come Find Me). He will be found by you, Sara.
well, here i am.
its almost november.
portland is still calling my heart.
money is still tugging me back.
i will not stop praying.
and me praying has nothing to do with the fact that i am in a desicion making time in my life.
i am praying because that is what i choose to do.
so ya. if money is the only thing stopping me, then sweet.
i would be more freaked out if this whole portland thing was because of my own doing and not god's.
it's pretty freaking rad to read trav's words & see them have truth & life examples to go with them.
do your thing god. (that is in reference to an n*sync song fyi)
and pee es... i'm excited for eleanor's pumpkin night. making sugar cookies with fun cookie cutter shapes, pumpkin carving & watching it's the great pumpkin, charlie brown! love friends : )
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