comparing:

comparing myself to others has been my constant grief over all of my years.
not that 20 years is a lot but still, its what i've been given.
i compare myself to people who are:
taller, shorter, rounder, straighter, funnier, dumber, more popular, less popular.
you get the picture.
its so hard to get rid of these kinds of thoughts.
and i am having a difficult time of it today.
which always gets me in a funk.
i just want to use what god has given me...
but days like today i don't want what i have...
i want what he has or what she has...
i want his faith that god rewards.
i want her boyfriend that encourages and kisses.
man.
downer blog for a downer day.
sorry.