take heart:

so i have no time to write everything that i need to.
that blog will come later.
but i do have time to write this:
Jesus used my mouth to tell carl that He loves him today.
and that i love him too.
but Jesus loves him more.
the man that i have had the hardest time loving and working with for the past 2 years now knows that:
Jesus
Loves
Him.
and all because i said OK FINE! and got up out of my chair, walked into his office and said:
"um carl? so i have one more thing to tell you. um... (cue lots and lots of tears) i just really wanted to tell you that jesus loves you, so much.  i love you too but you know, jesus loves you the most."
the power of words is remarkable.
i am in awe of my jesus.
and i have only one thing i can think of to say right now:
THANK YOU, JESUS. I LOVE YOU.